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as a spiritual principle has nothing to do with getting my own way or handing over my power to those who command it. this morning, i took a very long seed from my source material, because it rang out loudly to me, especially the part of handing over my power. part of the complicated relationship i have with my niece, the addict, was all about her lack of respect for me, then the excuses that she would use to attempt to gaslight her way out of it. time and again, when pushed, i exploded and there was emotional shrapnel all over the place. that is n0ot who i care to be these days, but my recent experience shows me that i am still that dude, when i wander off the path. that is certainly something i need to take a peek at, over the course of the next few weeks, as i arrange a time and place to meet with my sponse and decide whether we need to commence a new journey through the steps.
on the flip side, however, hanging with my sponsorship family last night and seeing the connections they made with each other. i felt respected, even though i did not need to command or demand it. i respected all that showed up and my impression was that everyone had a good time. i know i certainly did and the amazing part of the whole event was many of those i sponsor have “issues” with each other and none of those tensions rose to the surface last night. there was plenty of respect to go around and as my sponse has told me more than once, if i want to be respected, than i need to be respectful.
the time for me to get rolling is at hand, i have a house to clean out, coffee to pick up and maybe, just maybe the time to enjoy a cigar in the comfort of my local lounge. life may not be all that straightforward this morning, but i do have tasks ahead of me over the next two days, that need to be accomplished and allowing myself the freedom to move into them, respecting those who may be helping me out, is a great way to get started this morning.

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