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been clean for a minute, it is easy to dismiss the responsibility to welcome the potential members that comprise the parade of newcomers. i can say that is certainly an action to which i fall victim. although i am not like some of my peers, who require a newcomer to distract them from their reality. i am not one of those, who mob the newcomer and attempt to twelve stomp them into membership. for me, i have found that quietly approaching a newcomer and speaking to them as people, offering a possible solution to active addiction works better. in fact, my latest sponsee told me, it was because of that action, that he asked me to sponsor him, at least temporarily, which was never my intent, i just wanted him to keep coming back, whether or not he was clean. YAY, ME! 😉
i found out yesterday that i will not get the opportunity to apply for my dream job. in all reality, i was not pinning my hopes and dreams on securing that position, but i was excited about the possibility. in the cold harsh light of dawn, this morning, that disappointment is not enough to weigh me down or cause me to seek the ways and means to alter my emotions. life goes on, the bills will get paid and i will go do the work out suggested by my fitness tracker. i may, however, treat myself to a very decent cigar as i work this morning and revert my code back to where it was, so i can get it looked at and into the pipeline.
i do not have a whole lot more to say, other than it is up to me, to be part of the welcome to recovery wagon and not allow my peers to shoulder that responsibility by themselves. although the parade of newcomers ebbs and flows, i do not need to be the one that circles and stars my number on the phone list. i need to be the one that lets them know that i am home here and they, too, can be, if they choose to do so. it is after all, a just for today program.

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