∞ if i am not comfortable with what i learned when i was growing up, i can try a different approach to my spirituality. ∞
Posted: Wed, Apr 23, 2008 09:06:19 AM
i do not have to understand everything all at once or find the answers to all my questions. it is enough just to know that other members believe. ironic that this was part of my sharing last night. i have written many times before about my spiritual journey in this respect, and although it is fun and easy to rehash that stuff, i do not feel the need to do so this morning. one of the changes that has been ongoing over the past few years was the lessening of my need to define what this POWER is. today, i am satisfied that there is a POWER that keeps me clean, that needs no definition from me. i have come to the belief, that if i impose a face or shape on that POWER, i limit that POWER’s effectiveness in my life. that POWER has no less POWER if i set those limits, but capability to see the work of that POWER in my life is what is really diminished. yes, i can pay lip service to the omnipotent, omnipresent, and infinite POWER, but as a human being, those are concepts that are really beyond my ken. why should i limit that POWER to what i can comprehend, when what i desire most is a dip into the pool of grace. that pool is where i draw the sustenance i need to stay clean during this slice of twenty-four hours and also allows me to make choices that are in accordance to my value system.
the problem i have been having lately, however, is that as a result of my current step work, my values system in in flux. i do not think that the changes that are being made are in conflict with how i have been living, rather, that POWER has helped to clarify what my vision is for myself and my life, and as a result i have a deepening understanding of what my values are. those values are more in line with the vision that my concept of a HIGHER POWER has for me, and as i approach the end of my work, i am coming to believe that i am reaching a new level of sanity, and although i am actually doing the footwork, that result and many more are the work of that vague, undefined POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR ALL MY NEEDS.
for right now that is more than enough to get me up and moving, it is after all just another wonderful day to recover.
the problem i have been having lately, however, is that as a result of my current step work, my values system in in flux. i do not think that the changes that are being made are in conflict with how i have been living, rather, that POWER has helped to clarify what my vision is for myself and my life, and as a result i have a deepening understanding of what my values are. those values are more in line with the vision that my concept of a HIGHER POWER has for me, and as i approach the end of my work, i am coming to believe that i am reaching a new level of sanity, and although i am actually doing the footwork, that result and many more are the work of that vague, undefined POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR ALL MY NEEDS.
for right now that is more than enough to get me up and moving, it is after all just another wonderful day to recover.
MY BAD! Happy 25th clean date anniversary Carlos G and thanks for being my sponsor!
∞ DT ∞