ฮฑ it becomes possible to trust that this Higher Power ฯ
Posted: Mon, Jun 25, 2007 10:14:01 AM
will continue to help me in the future. and trust offers me the strength to move forward.
so what evidence of miracles do i have today? well the way this morning is going, i would have to say not a whole lot. ungrateful to the max. everyone wants something today and i do not want to give anything. all i want to do is crawl away to some tropical beach and hide for a month or two. so the time has come to turn this around. after all there has been at least one miracle today -- i am still clean today, and i still choose to do whatever it takes to stay in active recovery today. so there are two miracles for sure.
this reading is one of those where i am never sure quite how i will react when i read it. in fact since i have started moving my reaction was different from when i read it first thing this morning. i have been dealing with all kinds of demands and you know what, after a moment of thinking about it, it is a miracle that i have people that want me to work for them. when i came to recovery, i was barely employable, and now i am busy and successful, so the gift of success, is a miracle that has come from the process of recovery, hence from a loving HIGHER POWER.
so a bit of gratitude has started to creep in, and you know what that is really a good thing for me right now. that is also a miracle, because nothing that ever happened to me was ever a good thing when i was using. recovery as a matter of fact, even the miracle of recovery was something i totally missed in those early days. i was not grateful for being here and looked on this blessing as a curse.
so the biggest miracle is that i am able to see the miracle today, and find a bit of gratitude, regardless of what the day brings. so back to the grind, and see what other miracles can happen.
so what evidence of miracles do i have today? well the way this morning is going, i would have to say not a whole lot. ungrateful to the max. everyone wants something today and i do not want to give anything. all i want to do is crawl away to some tropical beach and hide for a month or two. so the time has come to turn this around. after all there has been at least one miracle today -- i am still clean today, and i still choose to do whatever it takes to stay in active recovery today. so there are two miracles for sure.
this reading is one of those where i am never sure quite how i will react when i read it. in fact since i have started moving my reaction was different from when i read it first thing this morning. i have been dealing with all kinds of demands and you know what, after a moment of thinking about it, it is a miracle that i have people that want me to work for them. when i came to recovery, i was barely employable, and now i am busy and successful, so the gift of success, is a miracle that has come from the process of recovery, hence from a loving HIGHER POWER.
so a bit of gratitude has started to creep in, and you know what that is really a good thing for me right now. that is also a miracle, because nothing that ever happened to me was ever a good thing when i was using. recovery as a matter of fact, even the miracle of recovery was something i totally missed in those early days. i was not grateful for being here and looked on this blessing as a curse.
so the biggest miracle is that i am able to see the miracle today, and find a bit of gratitude, regardless of what the day brings. so back to the grind, and see what other miracles can happen.
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