Ξ΄ for me, the past is like a bad dream. my life is not the same any more, Ξ
Posted: Sat, Oct 27, 2007 10:41:57 AM
but i still have fleeting, highly charged emotional memories of my really uncomfortable past.
although they come less often and have less power than before. i know that the power that felling have over me will continue to diminish but there is a caveat -- if i want the contuinuing relief from the uncomfortable feelings of facing my past, i have to keep working the steps. i know that there is a line of thought out there that state the steps need only be worked a single time, and for them i am sure it works. for me, i have found that each time through the cycle of the steps produces an entirely new result. the stuff in my past i was unable to face when i last worked the steps is now clear. so an extension of that line of thought is that the next time i work the steps, i will see what is beyond my ability to see today. no i am not becoming some sort of self-actualized saint, but i am on the path to becoming the man i always wanted to be.
it is a dreary sort of day, and the weirdest part is convention is in my home town. here i sit, doing a bit of work, waiting to go over and fellowship, and yet somehow it feels so unreal. i do believe that is a function of whatever and to analyze that feeling is not really going to be all that productive this morning.
so high ho high ho it is off to convention i go!
although they come less often and have less power than before. i know that the power that felling have over me will continue to diminish but there is a caveat -- if i want the contuinuing relief from the uncomfortable feelings of facing my past, i have to keep working the steps. i know that there is a line of thought out there that state the steps need only be worked a single time, and for them i am sure it works. for me, i have found that each time through the cycle of the steps produces an entirely new result. the stuff in my past i was unable to face when i last worked the steps is now clear. so an extension of that line of thought is that the next time i work the steps, i will see what is beyond my ability to see today. no i am not becoming some sort of self-actualized saint, but i am on the path to becoming the man i always wanted to be.
it is a dreary sort of day, and the weirdest part is convention is in my home town. here i sit, doing a bit of work, waiting to go over and fellowship, and yet somehow it feels so unreal. i do believe that is a function of whatever and to analyze that feeling is not really going to be all that productive this morning.
so high ho high ho it is off to convention i go!
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