Ξ΄ the Twelve Steps are the formula that helps me learn to put the past in its place. Ξ΄
Posted: Mon, Oct 27, 2008 08:33:37 AM
once the past loses its control over me, i am free to find new ways to live, ways that reflect who i truly am. okay i could start off about the irony of this reading for me today, although if you have been following my little saga, as i recount it here online, it would be quite obvious, so i think i will defer on that and just launch into what i am thinking about this morning.
over the course of the weekend i had the privilege to work with two of the men who have honored me, by allowing me to sponsor them. anyhow, one of them is without a doubt stuck in the process of allowing the past to be put into its proper perspective, and as i read this reading, i immediately wondered if he was also reading it. i certainly do not know, but if he is following suggestions, this reading should be a wake-up call for him.
but enough about other people, what also struck me this morning, is how silly it has been for me to be holding on to the garbage that my past relationships have left behind. i got to see first hand, that for some, our relationship had not changed one iota, even after all the uproar and explosions. i find that sad, because i have moved on and am ready to embark on an entirely different direction. my past with her is gone, but not forgotten, and as i move forward, i can now see that she will be left further and further behind in my dust, but as i have been saying so often lately that it is becoming my mantra, i am powerless over other people, especially those that are blind and deaf to what is going on around them. iy is my job to be present for what is going on in my life and make the necessary adjustments to my view of reality. and that view does not include allowing my past to be anything more than that today, the past, the sum of my experiences up to now and a guide for where i want to go as i move into the future, one moment at a time, so off to the races, i do need a bit of a work out, to burn off the fudge i ate over the weekend.
over the course of the weekend i had the privilege to work with two of the men who have honored me, by allowing me to sponsor them. anyhow, one of them is without a doubt stuck in the process of allowing the past to be put into its proper perspective, and as i read this reading, i immediately wondered if he was also reading it. i certainly do not know, but if he is following suggestions, this reading should be a wake-up call for him.
but enough about other people, what also struck me this morning, is how silly it has been for me to be holding on to the garbage that my past relationships have left behind. i got to see first hand, that for some, our relationship had not changed one iota, even after all the uproar and explosions. i find that sad, because i have moved on and am ready to embark on an entirely different direction. my past with her is gone, but not forgotten, and as i move forward, i can now see that she will be left further and further behind in my dust, but as i have been saying so often lately that it is becoming my mantra, i am powerless over other people, especially those that are blind and deaf to what is going on around them. iy is my job to be present for what is going on in my life and make the necessary adjustments to my view of reality. and that view does not include allowing my past to be anything more than that today, the past, the sum of my experiences up to now and a guide for where i want to go as i move into the future, one moment at a time, so off to the races, i do need a bit of a work out, to burn off the fudge i ate over the weekend.
∞ DT ∞