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to grasp it, all i need to do is keep faith in the Higher Power that got me clean and keeps me clean. okay, a FAITH based program sounds quite foreign to me, and the religious connotations have in the past overwhelmed me. after all, the popular media and the loudest wailers are all about injecting FAITH-based stuff down my throat in the sick and twisted view that as the majority, they have the right to do so. democracy is after all, the tyranny of the majority, so i have to like it or move somewhere else as some of the vocal members of that particular strand of society will tell me. but although this is quite the political season, my dive into those waters ends there, what a FAITH-based program means to me,. is quite a personal experience and one that i will share one on one with another person, but not one that i need to shout out loudly from the rooftops. the days of raising my voice just to be heard are coming to a conclusion, and today i am setting the stage for the next phase in my recovery.
the only way i can even contemplate making such a bold move, is that i have FAITH that the POWER that brought me to the rooms, the POWER that filled my days with the strength to endure bone-crushing jones day in and day out in my early recovery, is the same POWER that will provide me with the tools i need to continue my journey. oh, by the way, it is that same POWER that keeps me clean today. anyhow, i have things to do, and need to take care of myself in some respects before facing my day. i am grateful that i have the ability to look at my FAITH as a gift and strip that term of all the negative feelings i once had about it, and see it for what it is in my life today, the way to become the person i have always wanted to be.

∞ DT ∞