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slip into two days, four days, or a week. no matter what is happening in my life i cannot neglect the principles that have saved my life. okay, i am on one of those daily maintenance steps, and it is boring the living fvck out of me. so as i formally work through my feelings about the nature of this inventory, and find an inventory that will work in this particular phase of my recovery, i have to allow myself to feel but i keep on doing. the irony of this whole thing is, that i seem to always fall back on what has worked, even if it feels like it is not working right now. that applied to my little ennui period about recovery in general, that applies to the friends i have or may have in the present time, and it seem to apply even to my 10th STEP inventory. yes, the pamphlet that i am working from feels trite, redundant and far below me, nevertheless, following the direction of my sponsor, i am doing it anyhow.
i do have an outlet, all of a sudden my meeting attendance has gone up by an extra meeting a week, and i am working with one of the new men that honor me by calling me their sponsor, on a weekly basis. and i have been very faithful in writing this particular brain dump on a daily basis. so even though i am coming to the point, that i no longer desire to write my daily inventory until i can move into the next phase, i am not lacking in daily maintenance, despite what anyone may think -- so there!
alrighty then, i have a bunch of stuff to accomplish this morning, so it is off to reality with this thought in mind, my action create my attitude, and only i can choose to behave in a different manner, HIGHER POWER may remove my defects and shortcomings, but i also have an active part in my recovery, at least just for today.

∞ DT ∞