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because of more than a few issues with my morning routine, i am without a doubt, in need of a bit of serenity, this morning. i have been worried about trhis and that, because my expectations have not been met, and yet, i am still unwilling to look at all things over which i have no power. of course, my response, is to take things into my own hands and make a few moves that could have waited until i allowed the events of today to play out. worry is without a doubt, lack of FAITH and i was severely lacking in any FAITH this morning, as i sat trying to get stuff done. sitting here now, writing about my insanity i see that taking a breath and moving along, is probably my best course of action.
as i was looking for how to get this little ditty started i read my entry from last year, and yes, there was a whole lot of shaking going on at that time as well. i was upset about politics, which are still the same, i was upset about how one of the meetings i liked to attend, was no longer doing anything for me, and i stopped attending that meeting. in general, i was just fed up and disgusted with my life at that minute and the events of the past year have brought me more than a bit of confusion, uncertainty and doubt in where i am going, outside of the rooms. this morning, however, as i sit here and start to Loki at what is really going on, i find that no matter how bad i want to paint my life, it is actually pretty darn good, all i have to do, is appreciate a bit of what i have and stop trying to grasp what i do not necessarily need.
perhaps. i have finally reached the spot where i can put pen to paper and move into a whole different set of gripes and complaints about my step work. maybe i will go out and but myself a SuperBowl trip, all inclusive. maybe i will go get a tattoo. or maybe, i will allow myself the FREEDOM to do absolutely nothing and see what comes of it. some of the time, sitting on my hands is really the best course of action.

∞ DT ∞