๐ฅ recovering my serenity ๐ค
Posted: Tue, Jan 23, 2018 08:38:54 AM
because of more than a few issues with my morning routine, i am without a doubt, in need of a bit of serenity, this morning. i have been worried about trhis and that, because my expectations have not been met, and yet, i am still unwilling to look at all things over which i have no power. of course, my response, is to take things into my own hands and make a few moves that could have waited until i allowed the events of today to play out. worry is without a doubt, lack of FAITH and i was severely lacking in any FAITH this morning, as i sat trying to get stuff done. sitting here now, writing about my insanity i see that taking a breath and moving along, is probably my best course of action.
as i was looking for how to get this little ditty started i read my entry from last year, and yes, there was a whole lot of shaking going on at that time as well. i was upset about politics, which are still the same, i was upset about how one of the meetings i liked to attend, was no longer doing anything for me, and i stopped attending that meeting. in general, i was just fed up and disgusted with my life at that minute and the events of the past year have brought me more than a bit of confusion, uncertainty and doubt in where i am going, outside of the rooms. this morning, however, as i sit here and start to Loki at what is really going on, i find that no matter how bad i want to paint my life, it is actually pretty darn good, all i have to do, is appreciate a bit of what i have and stop trying to grasp what i do not necessarily need.
perhaps. i have finally reached the spot where i can put pen to paper and move into a whole different set of gripes and complaints about my step work. maybe i will go out and but myself a SuperBowl trip, all inclusive. maybe i will go get a tattoo. or maybe, i will allow myself the FREEDOM to do absolutely nothing and see what comes of it. some of the time, sitting on my hands is really the best course of action.
as i was looking for how to get this little ditty started i read my entry from last year, and yes, there was a whole lot of shaking going on at that time as well. i was upset about politics, which are still the same, i was upset about how one of the meetings i liked to attend, was no longer doing anything for me, and i stopped attending that meeting. in general, i was just fed up and disgusted with my life at that minute and the events of the past year have brought me more than a bit of confusion, uncertainty and doubt in where i am going, outside of the rooms. this morning, however, as i sit here and start to Loki at what is really going on, i find that no matter how bad i want to paint my life, it is actually pretty darn good, all i have to do, is appreciate a bit of what i have and stop trying to grasp what i do not necessarily need.
perhaps. i have finally reached the spot where i can put pen to paper and move into a whole different set of gripes and complaints about my step work. maybe i will go out and but myself a SuperBowl trip, all inclusive. maybe i will go get a tattoo. or maybe, i will allow myself the FREEDOM to do absolutely nothing and see what comes of it. some of the time, sitting on my hands is really the best course of action.
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