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Wed, Jan 23, 2019 07:35:08 AM
☲ averting a crash, ☮
posted: Wed, Jan 23, 2019 07:35:08 AM
by exercising the choice to perform the tasks that have allowed me to live an active program of recovery. although i have been writing a whole lot about nicotine and tobacco, that really is not that big of an issue. when i look at how easily i could slip back into being a full-time smoker, it appears jarring and hopeless. part of what is helping the past two days anyhow, is that when i feel that i am going to CHOOSE to use, i look at what is happening in the here and now and ask myself am i truly choosing or am i allowing a substance to take the place of the POWER that fuels my recovery? the answer has been, that i am giving that substance far more power over my thoughts and actions, than i really need to and surrendering that into the competent care of the POWER that fuels my recovery. the difference between choice and obsession is all in the context of what i am feeling. the biggest clue, at least for me, is when i start making justifications and rationalizations to grab a cigar and light up. what i am working towards and what will take a POWER far greater than myself or nicotine to achieve, is true freedom from the obsession and compulsion to use nicotine in any form. that journey has begun and all i have to do is let go and allow that to unfold as it will.
i can say without any reservation that my relationship with nicotine delivery systems has been a drag on my serenity, when there are more things that are going on in my life. this distraction is making me confuse what i want and what i need. i want a way out of the mess i have made in my life, i need the will to eke my way out bit by bit and stop looking for the quick fix. with that in mind, i think i will do the next right thing and head on down the pike to work. i have stuff on my plate and today is a good day to let everything go and see what comes. stress and fear do not need to be the overarching concepts of my waking life to0day, because i do have a bit of FAITH in the program that has got me this far and a POWER that can take me even further.
i can say without any reservation that my relationship with nicotine delivery systems has been a drag on my serenity, when there are more things that are going on in my life. this distraction is making me confuse what i want and what i need. i want a way out of the mess i have made in my life, i need the will to eke my way out bit by bit and stop looking for the quick fix. with that in mind, i think i will do the next right thing and head on down the pike to work. i have stuff on my plate and today is a good day to let everything go and see what comes. stress and fear do not need to be the overarching concepts of my waking life to0day, because i do have a bit of FAITH in the program that has got me this far and a POWER that can take me even further.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) Heaven is long-enduring and earth continues long. The reason why
heaven and earth are able to endure and continue thus long is because
they do not live of, or for, themselves. This is how they are able
to continue and endure.