ฮผ my recovery depends on my daily maintenance program. ฮผ
Posted: Wed, Jan 23, 2008 10:22:33 AM
no matter what is happening in my life, i cannot afford to neglect the principles that have saved my life. although i was not thinking i was letting my daily program slip, and perhaps i was not, this particular reading jumped out at me this morning. what is especially striking is that each and every time i read this particular entry, i run through an inventory of my daily actions to foster and nourish my recovery program. reproducing that inventory here would hardly be a good use of my resources, but i am once again struck about how few meetings i attend every week. lately, i seem to be lucky to get to more than two. the ironic part of that is that, i am not that busy. most of the time when i am not going to a meeting, i am sitting in front of the television, flipping through the reruns, looking for something i have yet to see. lovely replacement for the therapeutic value…
…well it is true, that i also need to take care of myself, and relaxing in front of a mind numbing medium is not the worse thing i could do, by any means. i am getting to the point of trying to find another outlet to take care of me, and perhaps one day in the near future, i will take up the little artsy-fartsy activity that struck me as something good to do, rather than watch TV.
anyhow, living and maintaining this spiritual lifestyle is really not that difficult, and i do spend much of my time, doing stuff that directly relates to my recovery. the HOPE i can offer this morning is, that even though i may not appear to be maintaining my recovery, appearances can be deceiving. what was appropriate for my early recovery is not what is appropriate now, and honestly i am doing quite well these days. yes i was angry that i could not get my desktop computer to work yesterday, and i am ticked that i lost most of a day’s worth of work futzing with it, BUT i did sit down with a sponsee, i did get to a meeting and i did not nuke it and run. and best of all, i did not take my frustration out on any perceived target, and trust me, there are many targets in which i can shoot at on a daily basis, the biggest one being myself. so off to the races to see if i can catch up. life in recovery is good today and i am willing to do wahtevere it takes to maintain it.
…well it is true, that i also need to take care of myself, and relaxing in front of a mind numbing medium is not the worse thing i could do, by any means. i am getting to the point of trying to find another outlet to take care of me, and perhaps one day in the near future, i will take up the little artsy-fartsy activity that struck me as something good to do, rather than watch TV.
anyhow, living and maintaining this spiritual lifestyle is really not that difficult, and i do spend much of my time, doing stuff that directly relates to my recovery. the HOPE i can offer this morning is, that even though i may not appear to be maintaining my recovery, appearances can be deceiving. what was appropriate for my early recovery is not what is appropriate now, and honestly i am doing quite well these days. yes i was angry that i could not get my desktop computer to work yesterday, and i am ticked that i lost most of a day’s worth of work futzing with it, BUT i did sit down with a sponsee, i did get to a meeting and i did not nuke it and run. and best of all, i did not take my frustration out on any perceived target, and trust me, there are many targets in which i can shoot at on a daily basis, the biggest one being myself. so off to the races to see if i can catch up. life in recovery is good today and i am willing to do wahtevere it takes to maintain it.
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