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i suspect that forces beyond my understanding are operating. i see a fleeting glimpse of the big picture and find humility in that moment. that is all it is, a fleeting glimpse, but the HOPE is that as i grow and practice a program of active recovery, i get these glimpses more and more often.
it has been my experience that this is the case. yes i could talk about my connection with the divine and i could spend quite a bit of time doing so, however, what i am coming to realize is that the divine is way beyond my ability to understand. yes i can intellectually approach it sort of how calculus works, i make the the connections between the details smaller and smaller and when i get them small enough i have approximated what the reality is, at least within a small margin of error. using that analogy i could then write an equation that describes what i think the divine looks like, and what the REAL big picture is, and chances are it would be fairly accurate as long as none of my underlying assumptions are false, that is of course the rub, assumptions, especially when i make them, have a better than average chance of being wrong. so instead of of playing mind games, this morning i accept that the BIG PICTURE is far beyond my understanding and will work on being present for the portion that i can see, and that is within my reasonable expectation of being understood.
that being said, it is time to get my nose back to the grindstone and get the work done that i need to get done.
it is after all a good day to accept that there is stuff to done, people to see, and miles to go before i sleep.

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