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Wed, Apr 12, 2006 07:45:37 AM
∞ a fleeting glimpse of the big picture and finding humility ∞
posted: Wed, Apr 12, 2006 07:45:37 AM
have you ever had one of those mornings where nothing, and i mean nothing is going according to your plan? well for the first two of my morning, that is how it has been. jumping up from bed and putting out a fire or three, seems to be becoming the pattern for my wednesday mornings. perhaps i will just sleep next wednesday away and see what happens.
so you may be wondering what all of this has about a fleeting glimpse of the big picture? well not much, except maybe that i have not got my glimpse today, or maybe that is the glimpse of the picture today,. that life is not as neat and predictable as i desire it to be. and what humility can i find? that i am not in charge of all the details of life in general or even specifically my life.
of course, that tiny realization is enough to make me want to crawl back into bed and sleep the rest of the day away DAMMIT! i want to have control and i want to be able to manage the details of my existence, whether that is a trait of being human or a trait of being a recovering addict really does not matter, what matters is that i recognize what is going on with me and learn to respond appropriately. and that response today is to accept what i have been given, do the best i can with that gift and be grateful that i have the chance to live another day clean. gratitude and acceptance is not what i want to practice this morning, but if i want to survive until i shower off yesterday, it is a necessity, after all this whole recovery gig is more than i ever imagined it would be and is worth doing right now.
so off to the showers and into the rest of my day!
so you may be wondering what all of this has about a fleeting glimpse of the big picture? well not much, except maybe that i have not got my glimpse today, or maybe that is the glimpse of the picture today,. that life is not as neat and predictable as i desire it to be. and what humility can i find? that i am not in charge of all the details of life in general or even specifically my life.
of course, that tiny realization is enough to make me want to crawl back into bed and sleep the rest of the day away DAMMIT! i want to have control and i want to be able to manage the details of my existence, whether that is a trait of being human or a trait of being a recovering addict really does not matter, what matters is that i recognize what is going on with me and learn to respond appropriately. and that response today is to accept what i have been given, do the best i can with that gift and be grateful that i have the chance to live another day clean. gratitude and acceptance is not what i want to practice this morning, but if i want to survive until i shower off yesterday, it is a necessity, after all this whole recovery gig is more than i ever imagined it would be and is worth doing right now.
so off to the showers and into the rest of my day!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) It is better to leave a vessel unfilled, than to attempt to carry
it when it is full. If you keep feeling a point that has been sharpened,
the point cannot long preserve its sharpness.