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why people treat one another so savagely, but i do not have to do so. honestly, the past few weeks, since returning from my spring break have been hectic and somewhat disconcerting. i have a back-up at work that i cannot trust to get work done in a timely and efficient manner. i have a mystery problem on a set of servers that defies my every attempt to correct and emotionally i am just drained as i approach the commemoration of the end of my 61ST trip around the sun. at this late stage in that particular game, questions about mortality, eternity and legacy, creep into tip over the cart of my serenity. questions abound about the choices i made across the course of my life and the “what if i had only…” sort of scenarios become part and parcel of the stories i am starting to tell myself. when a reading about stepping back from my intense focus on myself and look at a bigger picture comes down the pike, this addict is grateful for the opportunity to pause and do just that.
the question about people treating others so savagely is a reaction to the daily headlines starting with the various heads of state and coming down to my local community. i could of course, not pay any attention to the news of the world and live ostrich-like with my head in the sand, believing the pablum that the main-stream media and current crop of politicians want me to buy into, hook, line and sinker. i swear if i hear one more politician use the terms “fake news” or “witch hunt” for coverage that is less than flattering to them, i am uncertain about how i will react. for me anyhow, very time someone whines “fake news” i delve a bit deeper into the story, as they seem to want to call attention to the facts that less than flattering, such as pictures of the wind, ruining a “good hair” day. little do these tools realize but the louder they whine about something, the further the news travels and perhaps it is time for them to research the Streisand Effect.
for me, i know one voter may not make a whole lot of difference, but i will not throw that power down the tubes by not exercising my right to vote. i do know that if i treat my “back-up” with the respect due him and continue to encourage him to think beyond the documentation, he will be more than an adequate partner in maintaining our customer's stuff. i also am quite certain that remorse and regret coming from my actions or inactions in active addiction, will pass once again as i approach yet another 4TH STEP. sure i squandered a quarter of a century at the altar of getting high, but my days in recovery are quickly coming to match those years in active addiction and what i have done since i got clean is becoming more important than what i did not in active addiction. what counts for me today, is whether or not i am part of creating a better big picture or one of those who wants to tear the whole damn thing down and walk away smugly self-satisfied that i left a mark on history that may actually survive the years. it si a great day to be clean and i need to get the heck out of here and on to my next responsibility for the day.

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