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i did not use in any of those instances -- but how close am i to using today?
i can be grateful for using dreams, frightening as they are, they can prove to be great blessings -- if i use them to reinforce my recovery.
i have not had a using dream lately, but this reading is a good reminder to take a spot inventory of my program. a good question to start, at least for me, is am i present today? by that i mean, am i listening to my feelings? am i feeling my intuition? am i listening for the voice of my HIGHER POWER in the words and deeds of those around me? am i stuck missing the forest for all the trees?
why is this important for me today? well, i have walked through life, blind to what is really important. as progress through this SPIRITUAL AWAKENING that is upon me, i am beginning to feel as sense of urgency to wake-up and smell the figurative coffee. so the real question have i used enough tired, worn-out figures of speech? i just am at a loss for words about explaining what it is that i am traipsing through, it is not for a lack of vocabulary, i believe it is lack of experience. these days i am without a doubt in the terra incognito of my recovery program. i look at the map, like Columbus did 500 years ago, and am a bit concerned by the notation **HERE THERE BE MONSTERS.**
so to answer all of those questions above YES, to the best of my ability. monsters or not, the path in front of me is the one i have chosen, and i have no regrets. yes there is an easier softer path. yes, i could probably stay clean by allowing myself to drift back into the fog of self-absorption, and i might actually be able to be happy. this morning, however i choose to be present for what is going on, and right here and right now it is time to come back to the real world, join the family of my honey, and participate in the activities they have planned for today.
so off to be present again -- until tomorrow…

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