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using dreams are but the most obvious symptom that my program may be lacking.
for me, i need to look at my behaviors daily for the creeping progress of complacency, and lack of due diligence in my program.
the things i look for are:

• did i gossip or talk about someone behind their back
• was i an a$$hole while driving
• did i hurt someone with a smart a$$ comment
• did i ignore a cry for help
• did i pray and meditate today
• was i judgemental or defensive
• was i present for those i love and care about
• did i go out of my way to "stir the pot" or foster chaos and discord
• and most of all did i remember who and what i am

for me these are just the tip of the iceberg, but they provide a barometer of my spiritual weather.
i want to believe that i am this spiritual giant who has this recovery thing down, but the truth is i am just a human being that suffers from self-cnteredness arising from the disease of addiction.
... but just for today i will do my best to live this program and see what happens.
-- DT --