Blog entry for:

vividly reminding us of the insanity of active addiction and encouraging us to strengthen our recovery.
well that is enough said. i could stop right here and let the day go on BUT of course i find the need to wax on and on about the obvious today, well most days.
so exactly what does this bring up for me? well, it has been more than a few days since my last using dream, in fact i do not remember my last true using dream. the troubling aspect for me is that casual use of socially acceptable substances seems to be creeping into my dreams on a nightly basis. i have a cocktail or glass of wine in my hand in many of my dreams these days and think nothing of it. that part of the dream is just a detail, and i always seem just to be comfortably holding it and partaking of the beverage inside the glass. now that i think about it, i should find that particular part of my dream as a warning sign that perhaps i am beginning to come to believe that i have become normal and am ready to re-enter society as a social drinker.
honestly, i can consciously say that having a drink every now and then does not appeal to me in the slightest, but the fact that the appearance of drinking is starting to show-up in my dreams is more than enough warning that i need to start forward progress on my step work again. my ass may not be on fire yet, BUT it will be soon.
or maybe the dream detail is just a dream detail and nothing more. it is my decision to deal with it or not. the choice i make today will allow me to continue on the path i have chosen and i need to accept this gift, subtle as it is and return to action. life is good today, the last thing i really want, is to return to the insanity of active addiction and believing that somehow i have become a social drinker is the start of that return.

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