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program may not be perfect, nor may not be a path anyone else can follow, BUT it has kept me clean and allowed me to thrive, instead of merely exist. it is true, i have using dreams. it is also true that i have a recovery routine that allows me to walk through life, each and every day, with a minimum of stress and certainly with no desire to use. that same routine, one might call it a ritual as i often tell the men i sponsor, starts me on a spiritual path, that feeds my soul and allows me the FREEDOM to be a part of something greater.
these days, after months of angst and emotional toil, i have found a bit of balance. i can tell my boss is getting desperate to make sure some of stay, as he has a meeting Monday and he specifically said to keep the time open. i do not know if i passed the audition yesterday, and right now, i can let it go and do my best on the final interview on Monday, after hearing what my current boss is willing to give me, to stay put.
anyhow, it is getting to the time for me to head on out to my home group. just for today, i am well, i feel connected and serene and i am ready to take on this day, no matter what may come down the pike. i do, after all, have friends, peers and a POWER that fuels my recovery, to provide for me, all i need to stay clean another day.

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