ฮฆ i forget that my fellow members are just like me ฮฆ
Posted: Sat, Jan 16, 2010 09:32:52 AM
there is nothing i have done, nor any feeling i have felt, that other recovering addicts cannot identify with. so yes i ended that last statement with a preposition, i just five minutes trying to come up with a syntactically correct to manner to express the sentiment and decided to move on, after all, this is a blog DAMMIT not some sort of doctoral thesis!
for the first morning since getting back from across the hill, i am actually relaxed and i do not feel pressed for time. yes i have a ton of stuff to do today, that never seems to alter much, yes there is some stuff i would like to do today, that is desire and i will see if i can first that in. and yes there has to be a down time for me today, and that will not be my lowest priority, that will be worked in as needed throughout today.
so back to the reading, when i read it this morning, i went to the old Babs Streisand song, People. corny i know, but the line that applies as edited for what is in my head is; "addicts who need addicts are the luckiest addicts in the world!"
so hopefully that song will be as stuck in your head as it now is in mine ;)
it is true that this addict feels out of sorts and sort of strange when he does not talk to another recovering addict in the course of my day, even if it is just to a voice mail box. i also know, that when i try and separate myself from the companionship of other addicts in recovery, i am moving out on to thin ice. even though the woman with whom i share my life is also in recovery, i still need outside interaction with others, and have come to believe that the greatest part of this program, after the 12 steps. is the fellowship i have found. the irony of that statement is that i did not come to recovery desiring any sort of connection, nor did i believe i needed support, emotional, physical or spiritual from anyone else, i was quite content being a rock and an island, since i have the theme of pop tunes in my head.
well, today i am worth the support of others as this addict cannot stand for very long against the tides and storms of life. this addict, me, is without a doubt much safer and more secure in the company of other recovering addicts, even if that connection is through a telephone. i am understood and supported and i think i will leave it at that this morning and hit the streets. it is a wonderful day to be clean and i will take this gift and run with it, literally as well as figuratively! so until tomorrow, be well!
for the first morning since getting back from across the hill, i am actually relaxed and i do not feel pressed for time. yes i have a ton of stuff to do today, that never seems to alter much, yes there is some stuff i would like to do today, that is desire and i will see if i can first that in. and yes there has to be a down time for me today, and that will not be my lowest priority, that will be worked in as needed throughout today.
so back to the reading, when i read it this morning, i went to the old Babs Streisand song, People. corny i know, but the line that applies as edited for what is in my head is; "addicts who need addicts are the luckiest addicts in the world!"
so hopefully that song will be as stuck in your head as it now is in mine ;)
it is true that this addict feels out of sorts and sort of strange when he does not talk to another recovering addict in the course of my day, even if it is just to a voice mail box. i also know, that when i try and separate myself from the companionship of other addicts in recovery, i am moving out on to thin ice. even though the woman with whom i share my life is also in recovery, i still need outside interaction with others, and have come to believe that the greatest part of this program, after the 12 steps. is the fellowship i have found. the irony of that statement is that i did not come to recovery desiring any sort of connection, nor did i believe i needed support, emotional, physical or spiritual from anyone else, i was quite content being a rock and an island, since i have the theme of pop tunes in my head.
well, today i am worth the support of others as this addict cannot stand for very long against the tides and storms of life. this addict, me, is without a doubt much safer and more secure in the company of other recovering addicts, even if that connection is through a telephone. i am understood and supported and i think i will leave it at that this morning and hit the streets. it is a wonderful day to be clean and i will take this gift and run with it, literally as well as figuratively! so until tomorrow, be well!
∞ DT ∞