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i really meant to write yesterday, but got swept away in a morass of catching-up that i lost the opportunity. good thing these two readings kind of flow into each other without the need for great mental gymnastics.
for me, part of maintaining my spiritual fitness has always been starting and building a relationship with a man who has more time in recovery and may possible have a few answers to the issues i face on a daily basis. before coming to recovery, my relationships with men were strained at best. i saw them either as competitors, oppressors or victims, and based my behaviors on whatever role they happened to fill at that time. this outlook on life, led me to a very lonely and unhappy existence. not only had i no one to share the burden of my pain with, i had no one with whom i could share my joy and of course no one who i felt could understand me.
so when i finally took the plunge and decided to recover, i asked a man to be my sponsor and started working on my first equal relationship. since i made that decision i have had the privilege to build that relationship three times. i now understand, that each of the men who allowed me to be sponsored by them, gave me what i needed at that time and when the time came to move, GOD arranged the circumstances to make me seek the change. so as i "grow-up" in recovery i became better able to trust another man with all my "stuff" and not be quite so hesitant about sharing what is going on today.
∞ DT ∞