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when i cannot care for myself.
okay, the reading to be nice to my sponsor comes around, at least a year, more than likely more than once. i am certain that every time i read this one, i say, i will call my sponse, thank him for his kindness and move on. this time will be no exception, as other than calling for and caring for my sponse, there is little else i can do to put this reading into action, as that is the explicit action suggested.
what i heard, however, when i was sitting quietly was this question: “do i care for the men i sponsor, when they cannot care fro themselves?”
the answer, did not come to me, as i listened and it still eludes me as i write this. what i do know is that i certainly do my best, which on most days is far more than just adequate and on my worst days, probably barely enough. truthfully, i have hardly ever deferred when someone asked me to sponsor them, as it seems that the POWER that fuels my recovery, keeps them all from being sick at the same time, or all of them having step work that needs to be addressed at the same time. today, i am having my doubts, as i have three men that need some extra care these days, and three that have step work done, that i need to sit down with and work over with them. there are plenty of hours in a day, just not enough days in the week for me, these days., but i know listening to them, letting them vent their fears, frustrations and anger and just being a calm voice in the howling storms of life, is part of what i need to do, and i am grateful for the opportunity to do so.
anyhow, i need to get rolling to work, and yes, i will explicitly take action today, after all my sponse is more than just the man who sponsors me, he is my long-time friend and knows me better than perhaps anybody else in this world.

∞ DT ∞