Some memes

what i thought about this morning when i read the entry is not how much my sponsor has done for but rather how little i show my appreciation for his patient guidance. i would love to say that i call my sponsor frequently just to tell him that i am grateful that he is there for me, or even that i remember his birthday and clean date anniversary. sadly the reality for me is that the only time i call my sponsor is when i am in crisis, need to do some step work or am reminded by the just for today reading that maybe he would like just an acknowledgement that i am grateful for all he does.
over the time i have been clean my relationship with my sponsor has changed from one of daily calls where i manipulated the time and content of my calls, to one where i call infrequently, or see him at all. in fact, i hardly remember that he is there for me most of the time.
am i that much better that daily calls are not needed? probably not. have i reached a point in my recovery where i think i can do this myself? maybe, or at least that is what the part of me i call my disease will want me to believe.
so what is this addict to do? well i can take a bit of direction today and i will give him a call and let him know that i am alive and kicking and express my gratitude for his presence in my life. after all, that is the least of the actions i can take today.
∞ DT ∞