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Posted: Mon, Apr 5, 2010 10:49:07 AM
the only way i got clean and can stay clean is by sharing my experience, strength, and yes, even my insane thinking with my friends, peers and loved ones that are part of my recovery process. well i have a fire to go put out, so of course writing this will have to wait until i get back. i can tell you that as far as this day has gone it has been a weird one, the dawg will not eat, i slept in and things are just moving so slowly this morning that i feel encased in molasses. so back in a bit…
well i am back and at it. more fires, more altered plans, but as i settle in to get this done, i am struck with a bit of gratitude for at least having some plans to alter. i could have all sorts of unmanageable events in my life, but instead i just have a bit of insanity, which makes perfect sense, as i am moving toward STEP 2. so in that context everything is as it is supposed to be i guess.
i did hear from one of my MIA sponsees over the weekend, and although he is not back on the road to recovery, at least i have some clues as to where he is, and what he is doing, so once more, i can surrender his particular form of insanity into the care of a POWER greater than me and move on.
so am i unique? well in the micro scale of things, of course i am. my experiences while similar with others in and out of recovery, cannot possibly be the exact same. HOWEVER, the thoughts, feelings and solutions i have encountered across the course of my life in and out of recovery. anyhow, i have work to do, and phone calls to make, so i will end with this thought, just for today, i am grateful that i am not alone, and others can provide me the guidance and the clarity i lack to live in this world.
well i am back and at it. more fires, more altered plans, but as i settle in to get this done, i am struck with a bit of gratitude for at least having some plans to alter. i could have all sorts of unmanageable events in my life, but instead i just have a bit of insanity, which makes perfect sense, as i am moving toward STEP 2. so in that context everything is as it is supposed to be i guess.
i did hear from one of my MIA sponsees over the weekend, and although he is not back on the road to recovery, at least i have some clues as to where he is, and what he is doing, so once more, i can surrender his particular form of insanity into the care of a POWER greater than me and move on.
so am i unique? well in the micro scale of things, of course i am. my experiences while similar with others in and out of recovery, cannot possibly be the exact same. HOWEVER, the thoughts, feelings and solutions i have encountered across the course of my life in and out of recovery. anyhow, i have work to do, and phone calls to make, so i will end with this thought, just for today, i am grateful that i am not alone, and others can provide me the guidance and the clarity i lack to live in this world.
∞ DT ∞