โ a curse? a blessing! โ
Posted: Fri, Feb 11, 2005 05:34:51 AM
yes i am clean today. i am happy with who i have become, have few regrets about who i was and am confident in who i will become, nevertheless there are times i feel the weight of my disease and that it was and is the bane of my existence. after all normal people do not have to jump through all the hoops i have to, just get up out of bed and face the world. normies do have to learn or relearn all those things that i missed while growing up.
even though i feel the weight of my disease, without having come to this journey i would not have any sort of spiritual life. i would not have the depth of self-understanding nor the tools to live in the here and now. and most of all i would not have the friends and the relationships i now have in my life. this program gave me so much more than 2710 days of abstinence, it gave me the tools i neglected to pick-up during my life in active addiction and a manner of living today that is without comparison.
so although active addiction may be odious to me and seem like a burden, without it i would not have the benefits of a new way to live.
and that is the nature of my gratitude today, i am blessed for being cursed!
∞ DT ∞
even though i feel the weight of my disease, without having come to this journey i would not have any sort of spiritual life. i would not have the depth of self-understanding nor the tools to live in the here and now. and most of all i would not have the friends and the relationships i now have in my life. this program gave me so much more than 2710 days of abstinence, it gave me the tools i neglected to pick-up during my life in active addiction and a manner of living today that is without comparison.
so although active addiction may be odious to me and seem like a burden, without it i would not have the benefits of a new way to live.
and that is the nature of my gratitude today, i am blessed for being cursed!
∞ DT ∞