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what???? self-support is not just for groups anymore?????
well truthfully it never was and i also understand today that self-support is does not mean i that i just pay my way with the money in my pocket. although money is important to allow me the freedom to purchase those creature comforts on which i have grown to depend -- food, shelter, and water, -- for me that is only the tip of the iceberg, money is only one form currency that i purchase my freedom with. today i can decide whether i will invest in my future by doing those things that KEEP ME CLEAN. i need to speak to an addict every single day to remind myself of who and what i am. i need to ask for the POWER TO STAY CLEAN TODAY from a POWER GREATER than my disease. i need to access the combined wisdom of those who have gone before. AND i need to do whatever it takes to stay clean today. this currency allows me the freedom to move among the world as an equal, look people in the eye and be the best person i can be RIGHT NOW. none of this make me self-sufficient, nor does any of this free me from my responsibilities that i have chosen to take on. do i really want the freedom that self-support in all areas of my life brings, not always but i cannot pick and choose, i am just another garden variety addict who only knew how to suck my sustenance from the world around me, i am becoming a person who is learning how to pay as i go in whatever currency i need to.
∞ DT ∞
BTW: to my dear friends linda and brenda – i am sad at the news of your loss. although there is nothing i can do to relieve of the pain you need to feel, i will be present to listen and share your grief so you do not have to do it alone.