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Wed, Aug 22, 2012 09:51:28 AM
♦ my contribution makes a difference ♦
posted: Wed, Aug 22, 2012 09:51:28 AM
ROUND TWO
well i guess the POWER that fuels my recovery does have my back today. yes it is true, that i just lost everything i wrote before in a fit of pique and frustration by accidentally closing my browser, which is what happens when i get frustrated and angry at stuff i should just let go.
back to the topic at hand as i listen to the rather disturbing hold music at walmart.com customer service. which was rewarding as i got everything taken care of possibly. i may still have to deal with Paypal, but that will be a bridge i can cross when i get there.
so the reading about how service is so important to the fellowship as well as to my myself. i started down a tangent earlier, and now that i reconsider as i am of a cooler head and more focused on this task, i can see that what i thought was a tangent is actually speaking to the topic. so i get to save my face as well, thanks HP for having my back.i know that when i got to recovery, my sense of how i affected the world around me was to put it mildly, just a bit warped.
i am now back on hold at walmart.com,. i guess i have to just go on and my run will have to wait. all of this for a $20 savings, the journey continues.
sometimes it feels that no matter what i do, in fact the harder i try, the worse things get. it is nice to know that even if it feels like nothing is happening, when i choose to do my best to carry the message to the addict who still suffers, i do have an positive effect on the fellowship that is my recovery home. or most of the time anyhow. there are days when it feels like, well i have already said that. i know there are no lifetime achievement awards for service to the fellowship. i know that i am expected to serve and serve gratefully. i know that service is part of a solid recovery program. even knowing all of that i forget, how important it is for me to feel like, i can be a force for change. so walmart.com has severely messed up my morning and now i am way late to run.
at 66 degrees, it means not the long run i was thinking about this morning, but something a bit shorter. i can will be a force for change in my personal life and if i allow myself to be, a force for change in my recovery, professional, and family lives as well. it is all about walking the walk and becoming the person i have always wanted to be.
BTW, none of those old friends, who i wrote about yesterday, gave me a call or dropped me a line, curious how things sometimes work out.
well i guess the POWER that fuels my recovery does have my back today. yes it is true, that i just lost everything i wrote before in a fit of pique and frustration by accidentally closing my browser, which is what happens when i get frustrated and angry at stuff i should just let go.
back to the topic at hand as i listen to the rather disturbing hold music at walmart.com customer service. which was rewarding as i got everything taken care of possibly. i may still have to deal with Paypal, but that will be a bridge i can cross when i get there.
so the reading about how service is so important to the fellowship as well as to my myself. i started down a tangent earlier, and now that i reconsider as i am of a cooler head and more focused on this task, i can see that what i thought was a tangent is actually speaking to the topic. so i get to save my face as well, thanks HP for having my back.i know that when i got to recovery, my sense of how i affected the world around me was to put it mildly, just a bit warped.
i am now back on hold at walmart.com,. i guess i have to just go on and my run will have to wait. all of this for a $20 savings, the journey continues.
sometimes it feels that no matter what i do, in fact the harder i try, the worse things get. it is nice to know that even if it feels like nothing is happening, when i choose to do my best to carry the message to the addict who still suffers, i do have an positive effect on the fellowship that is my recovery home. or most of the time anyhow. there are days when it feels like, well i have already said that. i know there are no lifetime achievement awards for service to the fellowship. i know that i am expected to serve and serve gratefully. i know that service is part of a solid recovery program. even knowing all of that i forget, how important it is for me to feel like, i can be a force for change. so walmart.com has severely messed up my morning and now i am way late to run.
at 66 degrees, it means not the long run i was thinking about this morning, but something a bit shorter. i can will be a force for change in my personal life and if i allow myself to be, a force for change in my recovery, professional, and family lives as well. it is all about walking the walk and becoming the person i have always wanted to be.
BTW, none of those old friends, who i wrote about yesterday, gave me a call or dropped me a line, curious how things sometimes work out.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) Thus it is that a great state, by condescending to small states,
gains them for itself; and that small states, by abasing themselves
to a great state, win it over to them. In the one case the abasement
leads to gaining adherents, in the other case to procuring favour.