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on what is happening right now, i can pray and ask a loving God to help i get out of myself.
this has been a recurring theme, in all the chaos that is swirling around me. what theme is that, as there are more than one, in the seed above? the theme of staying present, focused on the here and now. i am way down the pike, looking at my upcoming vacation, waiting for the sun to warm the place where i live, thinking about my next clean date anniversary and so on. when what i need, right here and right now, is to allow myself the freedom, to just be. yes, i am frustrated at work, as i learn a whole new framework, but that will pass as i climb this very steep learning curve. yes, i want to reach out and help some of my friends and peers, who do not think they need any help. yes, i am frustrated by one of my peers in the rooms, that seems to have it in their head that they know what is best for me, and lumps me into a general we and you with them. yes i am wondering when i will get the website i am working on, the computer i am setting up, the optimization i agreed to look at, and the CMS switch, done and if i will get them done, before i go off the grid to Mexico.
yes, far too much going on, and what i feel i need to do this morning, is to breathe, relax, and ask the POWER that fuels my recovery, for the power to let all of this go, and come back to the here and now.
well here i go again, just a quick time out and on to the rest of my day. yes when i regret the past, i am living in resentment. when i dread the future i am living in FEAR. when i find serenity and acceptance, well that certainly is symptomatic of living in the here and now.
my friends who are suffering? well they more than likely would not hear what i have to say, anyhow, so keeping my advice,m suggestions and opinions to myself, is not a bad thing today.
my know-it-all peer? well, they lack the ability to hear anything over their own voice right now, so once again, let it go.
the work i have on my desk? well as the week progresses, i just need to nibble away at it, none of it is overwhelming.
the new stuff i have to learn at work? relax and take my time, no one is berthing down my neck yet, to get it done.
just like that, it is that easy, to evaporate the FEAR and resentment, that was ruling my life and come back to where i need to be, which is heading for the shower and on over to my job. they expect me to be there, and i want to be there as well, just for today.

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