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what is happening right now, is not as hard as it has been in the past. sure i still daydream and get off on all sorts of tangents. all in all, that is the exception, rather than the rule, for me. i had added one more qualifier to that last statement, but decided that it was a bit over the top. if i were to be honest, i like living in the here and now, and leaving my regrettable past behind. i know i have more FOURTH and FIFTH steps in my unknowable future, i am however, not on either of those steps, so for today, i think i will stay in Step Two.
as i worked late yesterday and early this morning, getting rid of some of the issues with my project, which i did accomplish, now i am in a place of dealing with a new issue. i have more than enough clues as to how to fix the problem, the issue is what path i go down. i am thinking that i keep what i have for minor changes and add a new function to replace the whole table. more will certainly be revealed as i ponder the problem and move on.
it really is not all that odd, that i chose to write about staying in the moment instead of surrender this morning. as i looked at my choices, this topic called out to me, as i have been all sorts of future tripping lately. i know that IF i want to have emotional balance, i NEED to take care of myself and allow the future to unfold as it will. that does not mean i do not make plans or look at what i need to do, to assure a tomorrow for myself. in fact, most of what i do, in the here and now, is totally working towards keeping me fit into my future. recovery is keeping me spiritually fit, and emotionally balanced. exercise is getting me fit and physically balanced. work, well work is work, but it does keep me financial fit and capable of paying the bills. living in the here and now, makes this possible and perhaps, lays the foundation for a future that i may actually desire, just for today.

∞ DT ∞