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Sun, Feb 12, 2023 01:01:23 PM
π as i experience π
posted: Sun, Feb 12, 2023 01:01:23 PM
the healing that happens by working and living the Twelve Steps, i see that, in reality, nothing is fVckD! it is quite true that my past could be described, at best, as checkered. it is also true that i may not ever get to chill and relax in my old age, as i have not accumulated the funds necessary to live in the lifestyle i to which i have grown accustomed. be that as it may, i am okay with the direction my life is taking today and comfortable knowing that if i continue to do the next right ti=hing and live a program of active recovery, i WILL get everything i NEED.
today, as i prepare to get out of the house for the last NFL game of the season, i do realize that i am certainly βblessed.β i have a home that is not been reduced to rubble by an earthquake, a hurricane, a flood or a wildfire. i have a job that pays the bill and provides me the freedom to work from home four days a week. i have the desire to be physically fit and the means to do so. i have a stable long-term relationship and friends, peers and associates who fill my life with their love. all of thee gifts were not handed to me on a silver platter and if mere abstinence was as far as i ever got down this path of recovery. i am pretty sure none of this would be a part of my current reality. i know that many of my peers would accuse me of hubris to say that all of this was the result of my actions and they might be correct, unless of course, they saw the POWER that fuels my recovery in the same manner as i do. i am not entitled to anything, BUT that POWER provides me the opportunity to get what i need, IF i am living in the present moment and take advantage of those opportunities as they are presented.
today's opportunity? the ability to run a 10K, get my laundry done, drive to my local cigar store and sit and enjoy a cigar or three and watch the Super Bowl with some friends and acquaintances in a smoke-filled room. i know that there is more to life than cigars, coffee and football, but this evening, that is what i am all about, life is too short to deny myself things that give me pleasure, just for today.
today, as i prepare to get out of the house for the last NFL game of the season, i do realize that i am certainly βblessed.β i have a home that is not been reduced to rubble by an earthquake, a hurricane, a flood or a wildfire. i have a job that pays the bill and provides me the freedom to work from home four days a week. i have the desire to be physically fit and the means to do so. i have a stable long-term relationship and friends, peers and associates who fill my life with their love. all of thee gifts were not handed to me on a silver platter and if mere abstinence was as far as i ever got down this path of recovery. i am pretty sure none of this would be a part of my current reality. i know that many of my peers would accuse me of hubris to say that all of this was the result of my actions and they might be correct, unless of course, they saw the POWER that fuels my recovery in the same manner as i do. i am not entitled to anything, BUT that POWER provides me the opportunity to get what i need, IF i am living in the present moment and take advantage of those opportunities as they are presented.
today's opportunity? the ability to run a 10K, get my laundry done, drive to my local cigar store and sit and enjoy a cigar or three and watch the Super Bowl with some friends and acquaintances in a smoke-filled room. i know that there is more to life than cigars, coffee and football, but this evening, that is what i am all about, life is too short to deny myself things that give me pleasure, just for today.
β DT β
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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β― The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao β―
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) The report of that fulfilment is the regular, unchanging rule.
To know that unchanging rule is to be intelligent; not to know it
leads to wild movements and evil issues. The knowledge of that unchanging
rule produces a (grand) capacity and forbearance, and that capacity
and forbearance lead to a community (of feeling with all things).
From this community of feeling comes a kingliness of character; and
he who is king-like goes on to be heaven-like. In that likeness to
heaven he possesses the Tao. Possessed of the Tao, he endures long;
and to the end of his bodily life, is exempt from all danger of decay.