asking for help
Posted: Tue, Jul 13, 2004 04:44:15 AM
one of the most difficult things i have to do is ask for help.
i have never liked admitting that i could not do it myself and even after some time on this path i still cringe when i am in trouble and ask for help
even worse is sharing that i am in a bad spot in a meeting.
i beleived that i was independent and needed no one else when i walked in and that attitude still creeps in from time to time.
intellectually, i understand that this is a program where we help each other, emotionally however, i still find myself lacking the necessary humility to be up front when i am hurting or confused.
the lie, and it is a big one, is that how can i help others if they see me as weak and dependent. that somehow the program fails if those of us with a little time still have doubts and pain. isn't it supposed to get better?
the truth is that is does get better and all of us, myself included cannot do this without assistance from others in the program. life on life's terms can be a trial and i can choose to suffer or share my pain and doubts with others to get one of the greatest gifts of the program
-- the theraputic value of one addict helping another --
so just for today i will admit that i do not have all the answers and let others help me through whatever it is that i need today
-- DT --
i have never liked admitting that i could not do it myself and even after some time on this path i still cringe when i am in trouble and ask for help
even worse is sharing that i am in a bad spot in a meeting.
i beleived that i was independent and needed no one else when i walked in and that attitude still creeps in from time to time.
intellectually, i understand that this is a program where we help each other, emotionally however, i still find myself lacking the necessary humility to be up front when i am hurting or confused.
the lie, and it is a big one, is that how can i help others if they see me as weak and dependent. that somehow the program fails if those of us with a little time still have doubts and pain. isn't it supposed to get better?
the truth is that is does get better and all of us, myself included cannot do this without assistance from others in the program. life on life's terms can be a trial and i can choose to suffer or share my pain and doubts with others to get one of the greatest gifts of the program
-- the theraputic value of one addict helping another --
so just for today i will admit that i do not have all the answers and let others help me through whatever it is that i need today
-- DT --