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a source of spiritual guidance within me that i can always draw upon. not being a so-called **GOD** kind of guy, it is interesting that these sort of readings make me ponder what i am doing here. after all, i can go on and on about how lost i was, spiritually and emotionally, when i got to the rooms, but that is given, seeing how i am still hanging round, and still an active participant in recovery. i could once again relate my journey of coming to believe and my discovery of FAITH, but that story has been told before, and well told, i may add. so even though i feel there are lots of topics here for me, there really does not seem anywhere to go, without covering well-trodden territory, or preaching to the choir. so i think i will let go for a few minutes and see what, if anything rises to the surface.
well, i went and checked who i got in fantasy football, rinsed out my breakfast dishes, and am starting to get a clue about where i might be going this morning.
one of tritest thing i heard said when i was in early recover, and do not hear much anymore was that “GOD” could be seen as an acronym for Good Orderly Direction, especially if one was having difficulty coming to terms with the whole notion of GOD and the spiritual side of recovery. i still think that notion is just a whitewash, but today, i can see some validity in that point. when i accept the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery, my life flows fairly smoothly. sure i am struggling trying to get this dang recruiting house off my back for PROOF that i have had my last two full-time jobs, but that i see as an annoying fVcking hiccup and nothing more. it all comes down to the fact that they are so rigid in their interpretation of what company is, and being purchased and them a name change is throwing them for quite a loop. this could all be settled with a single phone call to my supervisor, who would and could verify that i worked there since December 2012. that, however would be far too easy, they have to jump through these corporate hoops, even though i am already working at my new gig. for me? well for me, i just need to breathe, and allow their insanity to go where it will go. i am still of the belief, that making this move, is part of the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery and will let go of the petty, silly bureaucratic crap that is going on, that is of course out of my control. in my life, these times they be a changin'.
anyhow, i need to do crap with the county today, to cement the relationship with my new car, so it is an early start down south and perhaps, i will get the last piece i need done today, that will let me be ready to work tomorrow.

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