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and no i do not mean the local treatment center! one of the recurring themes in my life lately has been how can i live more in tune with those around me. the reading strongly suggests that i can do so by letting go of my ego and surrendering my self-will into the care of my HIGHER POWER, mostly third step stuff. i have developed what i call the asshole test and seems pretty reliable. the test is quite simple and goes something like this -- id i encounter a single asshole(IMHO) in the course of my day, there is a good chance that they really are an asshole BUT if i encounter more than one, then i need to look to myself and usually i discover that i am the asshole. something is not quite right with my spiritual and emotional fitness at this very moment and it is my behavior that is causing those around me to react or interact with me in such a manner.
usually when i do that moment of reflection i have lost my spiritual connection and am acting in the self-will rooted in self-obsession. it is my wants and desires that are not being met. it is my expectations that are not being filled. and it me that is me expressing those unmet needs by acting-out and those around me are just reacting to the chaos of my self-will run amok.
so what i end up doing is attempting to restart my day by saying a quick prayer, taking a deep breath and moving forward the best i can. usually this it is all it takes, and when i feel self-will creeping in again i try and do it again and again and again, ad infinitum!
am i some sort of saint? not by any stretch of anyone‘s imagination, but i am striving to live life in a different manner today, by applying the spiritual principles that once were so foreign to me -- JUST FOR TODAY!
∞ DT ∞