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with the world around me has never been something that i could just do. DESIRE and what i needed took precedence over everything else and what anyone else might need or desire. i pushed, prodded and manipulated my way to getting the outcomes i desires and woe to those who got in my way. this morning, as i pound this out from a few miles away from home, i have to consider how far i have come. i certainly want to get things to go my way, that has not changed. i can still hammer the world around me, to make it fit my vision. what is evident for me today, is that i no longer NEED to have things come out the way i desire and ii can take a cup that is half full, instead oh whining and complaining about it.
as i was walking by the shore of Lake Estes, i was asked about what we would do, if i could not find a new job, by the time my current one was done. i really have not thought that out, as i fully intend to find a job before mine disappears. i think i will go with that and head on out into the real world. self-will and ego be damned, i am going to let go and have a good time!

∞ DT ∞