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been at it for a while this morning and finally decided to take a break and see what was on my mind. honestly, the reading this morning did not set off alarm bells or whistles. but something is nagging in the back of my head, so hopefully blogging randomly will release it.
the reading was about living a new plan, a plan that was alien to me when i was in active addiction. the myth that i could go through life, living the daily plan of using and finding the ways and means to get more, without hurting anyone or anything, was a seductive one. these days i do my best to get through each day creating a minimum amount of chaos. my plan for each day is to live the spiritual principles that have been given to the best of my ability. coinciding with that premise is that i continue to give away my experience, strength and hope to others.
in order to do so, i have to maintain my emotional and spiritual fitness by prayer, meditation, inventory and vigilance over my behavior. all of this is stuff i know how to do, but dang it, it takes time. some days i am way to busy to go to a meeting, call my sponsor and friends, write a tenth step inventory, sit down and pray or even do a quick spot check of my motives and behaviors. then all of a sudden i am in pain, suffering from the self-flagellation the part of me i call my disease likes to use.
so what to do? stop, relax and let the spiritual part of me regain its balance, so i can move on. and you know when i do that i can have an excellent day, regardless of what is going on around me!
:) DT