🤜 free to live 🤛
Posted: Wed, Jan 3, 2018 09:30:32 AM
with others on an equal footing, what a notion. i no longer need to compare my financial or business success with others to be comfortable in my own skin. the truth is, i often forget that success, mine anyhow, needs to be measured on a different scale these days. comparing and contrasting how “well” i am doing in the physical world, really has no correlation in how well i am doing in my recovery journey. it is nice to have “stuff” and i do. it is nice to have relationships and many other gifts of recovery, BUT what i really want and think i need, is the FREEDOM, to just be myself, all the time.
as i sat this morning, i wondered about how well i am doing on an emotional and spiritual level. the answer i “got” was that i am doing better than i think i am. my need to be the most “recovered” person in the room and to have all the answers, has been diminished, as of late. i can give and receive love. i can stand up for myself, assertively and can do the next right thing, most of the time. i may lack serenity this morning, because a program is destroying my computer and i cannot get it removed, but this too shall pass. i am okay with letting go and not allowing the mechanical world to interfere with my recovery, just for today
as i sat this morning, i wondered about how well i am doing on an emotional and spiritual level. the answer i “got” was that i am doing better than i think i am. my need to be the most “recovered” person in the room and to have all the answers, has been diminished, as of late. i can give and receive love. i can stand up for myself, assertively and can do the next right thing, most of the time. i may lack serenity this morning, because a program is destroying my computer and i cannot get it removed, but this too shall pass. i am okay with letting go and not allowing the mechanical world to interfere with my recovery, just for today
∞ DT ∞