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the actual truth is i am practically clueless about what i do and do not need.
i think i need many things and sometimes use every tool at my disposal to try and get it. i wrap these behaviors up with some lofty sounding principle or even worse one of the spiritual principles i have been taught and present it to the world as something that comes from beyond my own sick and twisted self. what i actually need, was explained well in this morning's reading -- a vital, guiding connection to the POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR ALL MY NEEDS. nothing more, nothing less! not that i walk around expecting food, money or cigars to fall out of the sky, but when i think about it, that connection provides the means necessary for me to live happily and comfortably, if i choose to listen. and that's the rub! the word connection implies that there is communication of some sorts in both directions and some sort of feedback loop to monitor that connection for quality. i am the one at fault when i do not recieve guidance from the other end of that connection, since i have the FAITH that end is always there and doing its job.
so what do i need to do today? well i already spent some time this morning clearing the clogs out of the pipeline on my end, now all i have to do is go about my daily life and be present for whatever comes down the pipe, after all what good is an open pipe if i just let that vital guidance just drip on to the ground? none to me anyhow and today i want the benefit of that vital guidance!
∞ DT ∞