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well the few moments of quiet meditation i was able to squeeze in this morning, seemed not nearly enough. i did however get some clarity as to my direction for the day ahead of me. it seems that today my time will not be my own. i will be running from one task to another, one person to another with very little else between. part of this was a plan i made several days ago, to get together with those men i needed to today, but my phone has been ringing since eight-fifteen and i have missed every call because i was involved in something else.
so what is THE POWER THAT KEEPS ME CLEAN AND PROVIDES FOR MY NEEDS trying to tell me this morning?? i really do not have a clue, except that my plans need to be flexible and i need to be as available as i can for right now, after all i have surrendered my will and MY LIFE into the care of a POWER GREATER THAN ME! so right here, right now i need to proceed to my next task and let the world take care of itself.
∞ DT ∞
post script: 09:52:00 AM November 25, 2005
thinking about my recovery and the nature of the season, you know i can bitch and whine about my time not being my own, but when i came to recovery i had all the time in the world and no one that wanted to spend it with. i am truly grateful that people, my peers my friends, my lover and my family want to talk with me and be a part of my life. and that is one of the gifts that recovery has given me, for which i am very grateful today. i no longer feel alone in the world nor am i lonely and the only way i will be able to hold on to this gift is to keep doing what i have been doing -- living a program of recovery to the best of my ability! -- DT