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on this side of a month of late nights and little sleep, i am grateful i made it through intact. i have to admit, that i have not been taking very good care of myself and doing my best to ignore the damage that has been accumulating in my physical self. i worked-out yesterday morning, even though the pall of smoke from the fires in the nearby mountains, hung thick in my neck of the woods. i have been pushing myself to work before and after those long nights do i could take a “day off.” the end result, is that i am short with customer service, less than spiritual when i am driving and look to my own comfort, rather than doing my best to be present for those with whom i share my life. all in all, not a very good place for me to be, and perhaps, a “live” meeting is in the cards for me today. i can make the plan and leave the outcome to the POWER that fuels my recovery. one thing is for certain, when i complete the work tasks that are set in front of me, i will be signing off from work and checking out for the day.
this is where i might normally complain about whatever pain i happen to be feeling or argue against the thesis of the reading. this morning, on the other hand,m i do not have a whole lot of stuff of that nature, oozing out through my keyboard. as i “sat” this morning, i “heard” nothing and while that is not unheard of, for me, it might be a bit disturbing. my take-away from that, is that maybe i just need to let go of my expectations and admit that i am exhausted, which is carrying over into my mental state. i am ready to get away for a few days and leave the world of work behind. i doubt i will have the ability to watch the battle of the 0 and 3 teams, play football this evening, past half-time. as the sun rises, i can see that the atmosphere is a whole lot clearer than yesterday, so i think i will wrap this up and get my work done, so that i can get some miles under my belt, after all, i am the product of doing this gig: active recovery and physical fitness, and even if i let one them slide, just for today, i may not end up fat, lazy and looking for my next fix, but it may be a bit more difficult to pick it up again tomorrow.
i may not be in pain this morning, but i know what pain feels like and i can be joyful and grateful without the stark reminder of how it feels to hurt. it is a good day, to be good to myself and perhaps, as this day unfolds, i will get the opportunity to do more than i forecast being able to do, right here and right now. after all i do have a new manner in which to live.

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