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for this addict, that was my door into the spiritual side of this program. i may use the term **GOD** liberally, when i share, but i am lazy and what i mean to say is : THE POWER THAT FUELS MY RECOVERY. whether or not i assign human attributes to that POWER such as benevolence, really does nothing to diminish my FAITH. i know that my journey to this understanding was long and winding. what i gained from that journey is more than i can describe in a few paragraphs, but i can say that the one abiding tenet of my FAITH, is that this program of recovery can work for me and a HIGHER POWER, provides me the opportunity to get what ever i need to stay clean, just for today.
did you think that may be the end of what i have to drop today? silly souls, i have lived through another twenty-four and lots of stuff has happened.
i did a live in-person meeting yesterday, where one of my peers was confused about the difference between cannot and will not. in the fellowship that has brought me this far, i have never stumbled across anything like: “Those who do not recover are people who cannot or will not completely give themselves to this simple program, usually men and women who are constitutionally incapable of being honest with themselves. There are such unfortunates. They are not at fault; they seem to have been born that way.” to be fair in my critique, posted the entire statement and it does offer both choices:

1. can: has the ability to
2. will: has the desire to.

i am grateful i am part of a fellowship that writes no one off as being unable to get this way of life. i certainly was one of those who was dishonest, closed-minded and unwilling to do what it took to get clean, stay clean and adopt a program of recovery, especially one that talked so much about GOD and spiritual principles. i am also grateful that the members whop were here never gave up on me, even when i dragged our fellowship through the mud by using on my way to a fellowship activity. i could go on and on, but just for today, i need to hit the streets and get some activity under my belt. i am constitutionally capable of being more fit, spiritually, emotionally and physically, if i do the footwork and i know that there are others who are on the same track.

∞ DT ∞