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๐Ÿ˜œ i want it now! ๐Ÿ˜œ

Posted: Mon, Jul 12, 2021 09:30:51 AM

famous last words, that make me feel so childlike when i utter them, even if it is only in my head. immediate gratification is still something i seem to desire. it would be so nice to say i have grown out of that NEED, but it is still part of me. i cannot say whether it is because of years of active addiction, just part of being an addict, or just being human. the fact is, none of that really matters, in either the short or long run. i just have to remember that IF i want something, i have to work for it. 'nuff said.
what i find myself tripping across mare than ever lately, is a lack of patience i have with the people who populate my daily life. you know, the driver that is driving ten miles under the speed limit, the person that decides to cut the line in the grocery store. or how about those who choose not to get vaccinated, but will not wear a mask in public spaces. that is, however my stuff and as i sit quietly and allow things to move as they will, i may even develop a bit of patience for those lost souls as well.
anyhow, i really do not have a whole lot more shaking my world this morning. i do need to finish up, shutting stuff down at work. i do need to get some of the cobwebs removed from my coding skills. i do need to make Daisy food and i do need to run out and get some espresso beans, as my supplier is vacationing in Nicaragua. things happen according to some plan, that i cannot fathom, or perhaps they are really random events after all. the difference is truly undetectable to me. just for today, i will exercise as much patience, as i can muster, to make it through this day, whole and not fretting and fuming over what is not.

∞ DT ∞


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Tao Te Ching

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

The Tao Teh King, or The Tao and Its Characteristics
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

3) He constantly (tries to) keep them without knowledge and without
desire, and where there are those who have knowledge, to keep them
from presuming to act (on it). When there is this abstinence from
action, good order is universal.