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acquire or achieve some things, i will have to sacrifice others. my source material brought back a very old cartoon from before the days of memes, but it would make a great one. two vultures sitting on a limb of a tree and one says to the other “patience my ass, i am going to go out and kill something!” it is ironic that as i sat this morning, contemplating patience, that notion populated my void and stayed present throughout the rest of my meditation, no matter how hard i attempted to let it go. perhaps that was the problem. willing it to cease, rather than letting go of it.
this morning, i have decided to do a quick and dirty little project for work, just to get something done, while i ponder the tasks that are not quite so easy. even though i now have until the end of July to get my work up to testing, i have the desire to have a few more things off my plate before i go under the knife next Thursday. i have been running in circles since i started this last project of recreating a table that had 300K entries, many of which were incorrect. i have a plan and by the time next Thursday rolls around i will feel comfortable about how thin gs are working and i might have a clue or two about how to “idiot proof” the code i am writing. today, however, i am stepping away to take a peek at something different, so i can come back on Monday with a fresh perspective.
today, i have been shopping to replace my missing earring and thrice now, i did not push the “Buy It Now” button, even though i really, really, really felt like i needed to do so. that is far from normal for this addict, as once i decide i “need” something, i usually go and get it, hence the TV and computer purchases from a year ago, during “Prime Days.” i really did need a new keyboard and got one yesterday. i do not need a new earring and it is odd that the earring and it back are missing. that fact makes me wonder where i lost it or someone might have needed it more than i do. just for today, however, i will be okay without that stud, i need not buy anything to sublimate my FEAR of surgery and my final prognosis, with acting out or buying something. it is a good day to develop a bit of patience and not go out and kill something. 😁

∞ DT ∞