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i am gonna go out and get it right now! well perhaps that is not the attitude i need to start my day, i meant it as a joke but you know reading that first line i am tempted to erase it and start over
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learning patience has been a slow process for me and without the concrete immediate results i desire. so what i guess i am saying is that i have to learn patience to learn patience
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what kind of circular reasoning is that? none that will ever produce any results. you know, i know better than to pray for any specific things or results these days. i also know that compared to where i was when i walked into the rooms i am infinitely more patient than i was. so what i guess i really need to do is work on acceptance once again, there are many things that i am going to get to or complete today and spending my resources spinning my wheels, trying to figure out how to immediately gratify my desires is pretty useless, especially when i am so clueless about what my desires are. so back to square one, walk my talk, do the next right thing and move on, not a plan for today or any day.
∞ DT ∞