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Posted: Thu, Jul 12, 2012 07:47:34 AM
what is most important in my life, learn patience, and devote my resources to those things that ARE the most important.
well on a day where patience is the keyword, i am certainly having a morning where i have to practice what feels like more than my share of patience. i mean, seriously, having to call customer support at 6 AM and they treat me like some sort of tool, really sucks. BUT, and yes i know starting a sentence with a but is not good form, i can finally wirte this little ditty and i have some major experience in understanding that what i need and what i want may not necessarily be the same thing.
the last few days have been interesting, and this morning i have to announce the results of my footwork to the powers tha be. although there is no reason for me to be anxious, i still am a bit unsettled. change is never easy for me to deal with and this is a major change. the whole time i have been doing this contracting gig, i never really wanted to land a real job. i kind of enjoyed doing my thing and moving on. now i am about to accept a postition that feels like it will provide me something that i never believed i needed, the security of full-time employment. ironically, i am leaving my current gig, becuase they ahve not offered me a path to that security. as i sat last night and agin this morning just listening, i felt more certain, that this move is not only something i NEED, but has become something i WANT. the people i met the other day, felt like a crowd where i might fit in. the work enviornment left me with a feeling that maybe i found a home, and best of all, the commute is a whole lot cheaper and quicker than my current one. in fact my 430 mornings are about to be over, and i may actually be able to work in a few workouts during the week, something that has not been possible for me, for nearly a year. so the BIG decision for me this morning is how do i transition and when do i leave Denver for Loveland? that too, is almost a done deal and as i head down the road towards my inevitable conclusion, i am fairly certain that the plan i have in mind is the one that i will implement.
so enough about the done deals, where is it that i truly want to be ths morning and what the fVck does it have to do with patience? you know, i can bitch and moan about how tough my life is, but when all is said and done, i have a pretty good life. i could whine on and on, about how frustrating things are when my path is blocked or my expectations, like the bus being at the station at 6:00 and not 6:07, are not being met, but that does advance me on the path to becoming the person i have always wanted to be. life is interesting, in the Chinese sense, today and with a modicum of the tiny bit of patience that i have learned to posess, i can face these interesting times, with my head up high and survive and yes even thrive, all the time grumbling about IF i had my way…
i think i will sign-off now and digest what i need to digest, see what i need to see, and prepare how i am going to start the end of this phase in my career path. more than enough to cgitate on the last fifteen minutes of my buffer from reality the bus ride has become.
well on a day where patience is the keyword, i am certainly having a morning where i have to practice what feels like more than my share of patience. i mean, seriously, having to call customer support at 6 AM and they treat me like some sort of tool, really sucks. BUT, and yes i know starting a sentence with a but is not good form, i can finally wirte this little ditty and i have some major experience in understanding that what i need and what i want may not necessarily be the same thing.
the last few days have been interesting, and this morning i have to announce the results of my footwork to the powers tha be. although there is no reason for me to be anxious, i still am a bit unsettled. change is never easy for me to deal with and this is a major change. the whole time i have been doing this contracting gig, i never really wanted to land a real job. i kind of enjoyed doing my thing and moving on. now i am about to accept a postition that feels like it will provide me something that i never believed i needed, the security of full-time employment. ironically, i am leaving my current gig, becuase they ahve not offered me a path to that security. as i sat last night and agin this morning just listening, i felt more certain, that this move is not only something i NEED, but has become something i WANT. the people i met the other day, felt like a crowd where i might fit in. the work enviornment left me with a feeling that maybe i found a home, and best of all, the commute is a whole lot cheaper and quicker than my current one. in fact my 430 mornings are about to be over, and i may actually be able to work in a few workouts during the week, something that has not been possible for me, for nearly a year. so the BIG decision for me this morning is how do i transition and when do i leave Denver for Loveland? that too, is almost a done deal and as i head down the road towards my inevitable conclusion, i am fairly certain that the plan i have in mind is the one that i will implement.
so enough about the done deals, where is it that i truly want to be ths morning and what the fVck does it have to do with patience? you know, i can bitch and moan about how tough my life is, but when all is said and done, i have a pretty good life. i could whine on and on, about how frustrating things are when my path is blocked or my expectations, like the bus being at the station at 6:00 and not 6:07, are not being met, but that does advance me on the path to becoming the person i have always wanted to be. life is interesting, in the Chinese sense, today and with a modicum of the tiny bit of patience that i have learned to posess, i can face these interesting times, with my head up high and survive and yes even thrive, all the time grumbling about IF i had my way…
i think i will sign-off now and digest what i need to digest, see what i need to see, and prepare how i am going to start the end of this phase in my career path. more than enough to cgitate on the last fifteen minutes of my buffer from reality the bus ride has become.
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