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once again i am up against of a reading that seems to point directly at my responsibilities for living a program of active recovery. no matter how i slice and dice it, what it comes down to, is that i have to do the needful, whether i want to or not. this morning, as i attempt to rush out the door and get this little exercise done first, i am struck by how much i am trying to cram into a small amount of time, and how different this could have been, had i made different choices.
all of that may be well and good, but what really is playing on my mind this morning is football, specifically fantasy football. i made a joke to my significant other yesterday about “fixing” the draft order, as in fantasy football there are no spiritual principles, it is truly rat eat rat. as a result of being honest and acting with integrity, i am now the last team to pick. that may seem to be a sad use of my power, but when all is said and done, i know it is the result of random chance and nothing more and am satisfied that i actually exercised a spiritual principle, rather than dropping into self-will. NO AMENDS REQUIRED FOR FANTASY, yet!
what i also “heard” this morning is that no matter what i say and think, those around me will continue to do what they wish to do. whether that means they rail against the new mask mandate or buy the lies they are being fed, i cannot change them or their opinions, with words alone. if i want to affect change, i need to make my deeds, match my words and right here and right now, that means i get to wrap this up, and get myself over to Boulder for my home group meeting, without carrying in a caffeinated beverage. i have to be a lving example not just a paper tiger and just for today, that sounds like a plan.

∞ DT ∞