ฮฑ as long as i still owe amends, my spirit is cluttered with things i do not need. ฯ
Posted: Thu, Sep 4, 2008 06:10:23 AM
i can gain a deep sense of satisfaction from making amends and my spirit will rejoice at my freedom to truly enjoy my recovery. so here i sit, waiting to head to the hospital, trying to think of something deep and meaningful to write about and i am empty, i would think that there would be some sense of urgency to impart some pearl of wisdom, that only i have accumulated over the course of my recovery and yet i have nothing to say this morning.
i could just sign-off and go back to pretending that i am trying to sleep, or i can try to clear some of the clutter on my mind and concentrate on the topic at hand.
moving in that direction, i certainly can see where the amends process helps me live, and i can also see where resisting the amends process can make me sick. i have had evidence of both of those conditions in my recovery, and i have seen more that a few examples walking among us in the rooms. but i am really at a loss for words.
instead of milking this, i will simply say, see you all tomorrow after the anesthesia wears off.
i could just sign-off and go back to pretending that i am trying to sleep, or i can try to clear some of the clutter on my mind and concentrate on the topic at hand.
moving in that direction, i certainly can see where the amends process helps me live, and i can also see where resisting the amends process can make me sick. i have had evidence of both of those conditions in my recovery, and i have seen more that a few examples walking among us in the rooms. but i am really at a loss for words.
instead of milking this, i will simply say, see you all tomorrow after the anesthesia wears off.
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