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Posted: Fri, Sep 4, 2020 08:13:00 AM
be cleaned up. yes there are some messes in my life that need to be addressed. the nice part is that i can and will take care of them with my 10TH STEP inventory, instead of waiting until i get to STEP 9 again. the ugliest **mess** in my life right now, is the feeling i have about the stories i have told myself for so long, that they have taken on an aspect of being THE TRUTH. i am at the center of my resentments, once again and no matter how i slice and dice it, the “mess” that needs to be cleared has been building up for five decades. hoarders have nothing on me, when it comes to being unwilling to let go of these stories. the only way i can start to “eat this elephant” is to take one bite at a time.
right here and right now after two days of summitting 14ers and 2 days of fourteen hours of work, i am at a place where i need some sleep and certainly need to step away and squeeze out some down time. i actually need to find some time to attend a meeting and maybe even share a bit about how the mess i am facing, has me paralyzed and overwhelmed. what i am going to do, however, is get some steps in, work until 10:30, do some shopping and then take a long power nap. today, it is about taking care of myself and perhaps a scoop or two of “elephant” will certainly be in the cards. i have made my plans, now let me see what happens.
right here and right now after two days of summitting 14ers and 2 days of fourteen hours of work, i am at a place where i need some sleep and certainly need to step away and squeeze out some down time. i actually need to find some time to attend a meeting and maybe even share a bit about how the mess i am facing, has me paralyzed and overwhelmed. what i am going to do, however, is get some steps in, work until 10:30, do some shopping and then take a long power nap. today, it is about taking care of myself and perhaps a scoop or two of “elephant” will certainly be in the cards. i have made my plans, now let me see what happens.
∞ DT ∞