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these days it certainly feels like it. running my own bidness from home, getting ready to go to california for a week, and just life stuff has me on the run. i have still found the time to go to meetings and do my daily stuff, but my step work is gathering a bunch of dust, i have not called my sponsor nor have i sat down and talked with him in weeks. i think my sponsees are backing off on their need for my time because i seem too busy. and that is the last thing i need at this point in my life. i feel way, way out of balance and it seems the harder i try and get things to balance, so i have time to recover, the farther out of balance my life gets. and then here comes the reading suggesting that my recovery is something i need to place before everything else in my life.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i feel better now!
so now i need to figure out what action needs to be taken, starting this morning! first off, a call to my sponsor is in order to figure out when we can sit down and speak. secondly at least twenty minutes needs to be put aside today so i can write a bit of step work and finally a quick trip to an extra meeting today would be a great idea.
how much of this will i accomplish today? that is yet to be seen! but i have made my plan and now need to work on making it happen.
yes, this new life has all of a sudden become much busier than i thought it would, but this gift can be quickly destroyed if i choose to continue down the path my recent actions are taking me. i want to continue to recover and know what to do. the trick will be doing it today and that is always the problem isn‘t it. so time to moving on the next right thing.

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