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seeking the approval of others has always been my standard mode of operation. unless of course i was in my do not give a shit mode and then i just behaved any way i wanted too and used my feelings away. so finding a place between approval seeking and not caring is what i see the reading being all about.
even after a few days clean, i still feel that somehow, someway i have the power to influence others into liking me. and that applying that power is a good thing. after all, who does not want to be liked, respected and appreciated by everyone they meet? i do not know or care if that is a human trait or an addict trait, and it really does not matter. what matters is learning how to feel good about who and what i am, exactly as i am today, and that is the real tough part. right here, right now i am okay with how my life is going. right here, right now, i am satisfied with my spiritual progress and growth. right here, right now, i am perfectly content to be the man i am. and with all of that i can practice the spiritual principles of self-acceptance, self-esteem and self-respect. and all those self principles allow me to live in this moment without seeking approval from outside sources. does that mean in ten minutes i will not be seeking the approval of others? not hardly, in fact i just said something to someone that probably pissed him off. will i go and apologize, no he asked for an opinion and got mine. so am i a people-pleaser? yes without a doubt, but as i get a better picture of who i am it will happen less and less, after all this is a program of growth and progress and not where we all get to be perfect everyday and in every way!

∞ DT ∞