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was not something i was aware of, way back when. in fact, if one had asked, i would have scoffed at the idea that any part of me was sleeping and unaware of what was going on around me. from the perspective of where i am now, it is quite easy to see what was happening way back when and to be definitive when i say that i was quite clueless about what was really going on, especially when it came to me and my spiritual path. agnosticism is not a spiritual path. for me, it was the coward's way out. by not talking a stand and creating a belief structure based on that lack of commitment to anything, i can see that by believing nothing at all, i fell for everything that came down the pike. now that i am “woke” in all sorts of sense of that word, i see the world in a little bit different light.
what popped off the stack this morning, was the interview i have today and wondering if my recruiter fed me the answers to the puzzle my potential employer is going to present to me. i have been studying my ass off, and feel much more comfortable with data structures, and control loop features of the language i will need to demonstrate this afternoon. with that in m ind and a trip to see my sponsor tomorrow, my plan is to hang at the house and work on prepping my workspace and self for what may come. whether or not i already have the answers, i know i have the knowledge to perform at a high level, i will just need to refresh myself, write my “recipes” for success and let go.
looking at the rest of my day and my week, i know i have to be present for whatever is coming and if an employer wants to interview me tomorrow, i will need to be flexible enough to put off my trip to CO Springs, until Friday. i also realize that if i do not get out and about soon, i will not get everything done, i need to get done, before my interview. with that in mind, as i consider what it means to have a spiritual awakening, i can see that for me, i leave a smaller footprint on the lives of those around me. i no longer feel the need to be in control of everyone and everything that comprises my life today. the personal power that i do have, as limited as it may be., is better spent on making a better me, rather than altering the world to make it better for me. the time to exercise that power as well as my physical self, is upon me. i will walk out into the world, fully awake and ready to be a part of this life i have been gifted, just for today.

∞ DT ∞