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i am given all sorts of gifts, even those i never asked for and did not think i wanted. one of those gifts, one i asked for and received, was the opportunity to get back to work before my savings ran out. as a result of that ask and receive, i am working hard to make a schedule that allows me to commute as well as dive down and put a few words down in this forum, on a daily basis. i am not quite there yet, but i am getting closer.
one of the things that kept me focused and sane as i sought a new job was my daily adherence to practicing my 11TH STEP. just as there was a rhythm to me day, when i was using, so i have created one, now that i am living a program of active recovery. a HIGHER POWER without human attributes does not lend ITSELF to the notion of partnership, very well. even a few years ago, after i started coming to terms with how i saw the POWER that fuels my recovery, i still looked at my relationship with that POWER as a partnership, when it my reality, it is not. things happen, i GET the opportunity to respond, react and grow as a result. quieting my mind, i may actually hear the voice of that POWER, but mostly i feel a sense of belonging and calm on most days. this morning was no different and what i felt this morning was that i am getting closer to getting this new phase of my life figured out. as a result, i need to post this little exercise and head on down to my job. it is a good day to be clean and to be present for every opportunity i am “gifted” with, today.

∞ DT ∞